It is easy to become discouraged and give up when the outcome turns out to be something we don’t expect. For years I struggled with bulimia. My life became something I had to control. And if I couldn’t control it, then I felt like I was crawling out of my skin. Eventually I reached a place where I could not take the pressure I was putting on myself anymore and I decided it was time to learn how to accept myself.
To do this I started a jouney of intuitive living. The journey involved listening and honoring my body, mind and spirit with the understanding that my body would find it’s natural balance. The binging and purging stopped along with the racing thoughts and obsessive compulsive behaviors. My expectation was that I would lose weight, feel happy and have better relationships. But what happens when the outcome or balance is not what you expect and instead of shedding a few extra pounds, you gain them? What if you lose a few friends, instead of gain a few friends? What if you find that living intuitively means disappointing the people you love, rather pleasing them?
Throughout my experience with living an intuitive living lifestyle, I’ve learned to focus on the quality of the outcome, rather the quantitiy of the outcome. The quality of my mind is peaceful; the number on my scale or clothes is not. The quality of my relationships are healthy; the number of true friends I have are few. Our natural balance is not something we can choose or control; it just is.
Take a moment to sit in quiet and listen to what your intuition is trying to tell you; where your intuition is trying to lead you. Focus on quality of the outcome; not the quantity. Let go of the expectations you have of people, places and things and just let life unravel. It is okay to feel discouraged or disappointed, but if you stop in the middle, then you will never get to see the outcome.
Peace and blessings,